Personality Type

At lunch today D & P, my mates from work were discussing heartburns. D is a softie and attaches herself easily to people. P & me were advising her to stop barking under the wrong tree as it was obvious that her object of affection has preferences set for his own sex. We also spoke animatedly about male models which we had encountered at a ladies-party last night.
Suddenly P addressed me and remarked that I am stoic and unmoved by most things of this sort. She added complimentary comments that this made me extremely professional in my behaviour, always composed in my decisions and unmoved in my emotional temperament.
I dismissed this off slightly by saying that this façade is to cover the storm raging inside.
Although, I do agree with her at some level. I have been in two strong relationships – one was friendship and the other was love – and both deserted me at moments when I could have used their support the most. Since then, friends come and go, men proclaiming eternal persevere for redemption of love have entered life and faded away. Conversely, all these people feel strongly for me and pour their hearts to my patient heeding.
At work I do get chummy and join the inner circle seamlessly. But let this be kept away from work completely. Boss’ – I can proudly use plurality given my early beginnings in the job arena – preferentially trust me with important and confidential matters. Thankfully, I have never let any of them down.
From early part time jobs in college days, I have been assigned latest projects; looking back now I think I did a darn good job at target/project fulfilment for my age and expertise in the respective fields.
What she did not mention is that I am very cynical. Probably most people don’t see it, and I do take pains not to make it obvious. I have a negative take on almost everything, and can never trust anyone, or let go of myself and sail on the waves of the ‘flow’. Guess that would also make me a bit of a control freak.

07-May-07
Fuel to Fire
Another gem fell out from the office gunnybag, and headed for greener & saner pastures of the BPO world. Here is his take which was aired in his gudbye email --
Ni - Has to be the most stable person in the office. I saw her first when she was sitting where D sits. Then she moved to B'bay. Then she came back and sat opp. Poo. Then she moved to where E sits. Then she went to England. Then she goes to Tech Office everyday. Then she goes to R's cabin all the time. Then she keeps shifting between Editorial and Tech. As I said, very stable. But she is definitely more-than-stable about one thing - Bombay. She told me that Bombay is the greatest city ever where Jesus, Ram and Mohammad were born and where the only atomic bomb fell and where Aliens first landed.
I miss going to Tech Office purposefully and pretend to work hard when you did all the work and I just sat there and grew fungus.